jess3374

I love carbs and it drives me insaneeee lol. I wish carbs would be good for you and veggies and fruits would be bad for you. HA. Its nice to dream huh?!

Healthy or unhealthy?

I really have no motivation what so ever… NONE…

Yes! You! YOU are beautiful. No matter what size you are.. shape.. or color. We are all beautifully made! We may not always believe it… but we must embrace it! How are we going to love our new bodies if we cant love ourselves now? If you havent already… begin loving yourself today! For who you are that this exact moment. When ever you look in the mirror say aloud “I am beautiful” … seems silly but it works!

Love on yourself a little today and do something good for you!

<3 Jess

Todays motivation-

I want to be able to run a mile with out stopping! I want to feel that freedom. I WILL do it!

<3

I said so what Im still a rockstar Ive got my rock moves and I dont need youuuuuuuuuu and guess what Im havin more fun and now that the fats gone.. Im gunna show you tonight.. Oh im alright… Im just fine! So so what… Im still a rock star.  NaNaNaNaNaNaNaNaNA!

ps I know Im a dork ha

Goals for this week:

- Eat well

- Small porportions

- Stay positive

- Drink plenty of water

- Believe in myself

- Walk 4 days this week

- No giving up

- lose 5 pounds

<3 Jess

I have gone to great lengths to try and loose weight that I have put my life at risk.. and have almost died. You would almost say that I was insane… or was I desperate?

I have gone to such highly risky lengths at trying to loose weight that Ive almost died. Did I want to die? NO. I wanted to live that was the whole problem. Of course there is diet and working out…. but that wasnt… working for me? I have gone to great lengths… for example every time I wanted to eat I would snap a rubber band around my wrist… or just cut some part of my body to punsih myself? Or I would just starve myself till i felt like i was going to pass out… that never lasted long… because well of course I do love food. There were the days when I overdosed on diet pills, pain pills, tylenol even…. anything to make my stomach hurt. I went to such an extreme as even slamming my hand in a door for shoving my face full of food. There was also the occasional poisoning  . Yes I said poison. Rat poison.. cleaning supplies.. poisionous mushrooms… and so on. At one time I lost 70 pounds.. on pain pills. Needless to say I ended up in the hospital for overdose and gained it all back. I am not proud of what I have done. I just wanted to share what I went through and what I still deal with today. I wanted to be thin… Bottom line and I didnt care what I had to do to do that. I am not going to lie…. even today I still catch myself thinking of crazy things that I can try. Deep inside I knwo there is only one longterm-healthy-effective way and that is to simply eat well and be active. Its really just that easy… even though its really not at all lol.

Hey everyone!

Day 1-

So far ive had a slim fast and am trying to keep myself busy so I dont shove something in my mouth that I will regret. I start work at 1pm… then it will get a lot easier… untill lunch time. I am going to get a big salad… the salads they have at my work are loaded with cheese egg and ham… so I am think I should take off the cheese? I always get light italian so I am going to stick with that. The tough part is going to be night time… esp when I come home from work… I usually get home… shower.. and shove my face. THAT is going to be a challege.. but I can do it! I want to drink atleast 8 glasses of water as well. As far as working out goes… today that will be a negitive… although tomorrow I only work a half day…. sooo I will def work out! Another thing… I smoke… a lot… and I am really trying to cut down on that as well. I want to quit but I am afraid I will gain a million more pounds. Anywho.. one day at a time! I am so ready to kick some ass! Woooooooooooooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooo!

So heres to tomorrow! I am going to try my best to eat right! NO.. I will eat right.

I dont want to be the ugly any longer!